There comes a moment on the soul path that is not talked about in affirmations, courses, or visions of the “higher self.”

It is the moment when the old self doesn’t want to die.

Not because She or He is wrong. Not because of unworthiness.
But because the old self was built to survive.

To keep you safe.
To keep you seen.
To build a whole identity around what would work —
in your family, in your culture, in the algorithm of the world.

And now that your soul has started to come home —
and some times, it’s terrifying.

Because when the soul begins to land…
the performances must end.
The masks grow heavy.
The spaces you once fit in begin to itch.

And the one who protected you — through perfectionism, success, seduction, control —
starts whispering things like:

“Don’t change this. You’ll lose everything.”
“Who will love you without the costume?”
“You’re not ready yet. Stay here, where it’s familiar.”

Integration is Not Enough

In the healing world, we speak often of “soul retrieval,” “inner child work,” “shadow healing.”

But fewer speak about what happens after we reclaim a lost piece of self.

Because once you integrate that piece —
she must be embodied.

And embodiment is risky.
It costs old parts of your life.

You will lose the identities that no longer fit.
You will lose people who loved the older version of you.
You will lose access to certain kinds of external power, validation, and momentum.

But you will gain something quieter.
Truer.
Unstealable.

The Threshold

To embody your soul is to strip off every role that was built in separation from it.

And that is why resistance shows up strongest at the edge of embodiment.

Not because you’re doing something wrong.
But because you are finally doing something real.

The Spiral, like a diamond
It pressurizes you — to choose.

Will you stay in the stories that once saved you?
Or will you walk naked into the now?

Walking the Spiral

There is no single initiation that ends this pattern.
There is only rhythm. Ritual. Refinement.
Over and over.

This is why I created the Living Mystery Spiral —
not as a course, not as a brand,
but as a living rite of embodiment.

A 6-month seasonal journey of soul embodiment, creative devotion, and evolutionary leadership.

A space to remember, a space to uncover it — and offer it.

A Blessing for the Ones Between Selves

To the one on the threshold —
resisting the release of who they’ve been:

May you grieve the identities that once protected you.
May you thank them — and still let them go.
May you feel the soul beneath the shell of protection.
And may you trust it enough… to wear it close to your heart.

The Spiral is open.

Enter the Temple